time is like gravity...you can't stop it no matter how much you curse.

man last night was f'ing crazy...what an experience that was...perhaps i will tell one day...this week has been a week to remember and not really because anything monumental happened, but because i learned a lot...and it feels great...not running has been a bit depressing but i am discovering different parts of myself that i didn't realize existed and for that i will be forever greatful...i will always love running and do it for as long as i can, but right now, during this time off, i am going to enjoy everything else...and that is wonderful...i gotta give a shout out to J and C for the engagement...i am proud of you both for doing it up and happy that you found somebody who makes you smile on a regular basis...oh i gotta give a shout out to the pizza that i had last night too...it was the perfect culmination of a night that i never thought i would ever have...that shit was crazy!!!

i also got to see a layer of somebody who i have total respect for, that i never thought i would see...i find it incredibly interesting, the layers that we possess...and the layers that only arise at times of struggle, or at times of brief weakness...i mean, it doesn't mean we are weak or misguided as a whole, but in those short burst of time the layers glow like fireflys in the night; and its beautiful...i can't tell you how liberating it is to hear somebodies true opinion on a topic of life...no bullshit, no sensor, just their true feelings...that shit will wake you up like caffeine...and i appreciate the trust to allow me to be that listener...venting is a powerful thing...its like water being held in place by a damn, but having that damn break away...an unstobble force, it just flows out until their is equilibrium...i encourage it...in fact i want to swim in that equilibrium, breath it in...i want it to seep into my pores and surrond my soul and whisper sweat nothings in my ear as i fall asleep...i want it to lead the charge while i say all the things i am too scared to say...if only we had more time.

m.