http://psoebr.ulmb.com/journey/
here is to those in ontario that read this...i'll be seeing you soon.
m.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
time for reruns.
tomorrow the return begins...been saying my goodbyes and selling all my crap, streamlining everything so it will fit into the orange bomber and then off drew and i go...the saying goodbyes to the people i care about is always a bit tough, but i am excited to be moving on and hopefully this time its in the right direction...everybody keeps telling me 'everything happens for a reason' and i just hope they are right...i just hope the reason isn't so i can keep posting zeros to the scoreboard, but just in a different stadium...but i am pumped and ready to go...drew and i will be blogging from the road and since we only have his little cell phone we will be doing it at a special place...check out this link to follow and comment or suggest.
here is to those in ontario that read this...i'll be seeing you soon.
m.
here is to those in ontario that read this...i'll be seeing you soon.
m.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
the day i say goodbye.
when people ask me why i came to vancouver i don't really know what to say...i didn't come for a job, i was leaving a lot of people i loved, but for some reason i felt i had to do something...maybe that is it, just to do something...coming to vancouver has had a profound affect on my life...good or bad, i am not really sure, actually i am not really sure if i want to think about it that way...i have discovered parts of me i didn't know existed, but i have also lost things that i didn't know meant so much to me...all in all it was a learning experience...i guess some people would say it was a waste of time, but i would just call it living...i enjoyed many aspects of living in vancouver, but i know forsure it is not a place i want to live any length of time in...what i am saying is, its time for me to leave.
i am heading home.
well, i am not sure if that is an accurate statement...where is home for me...i guess in the traditional sense where i grew up, but i sort of grew up in different locations, so which one wins out as home...maybe home is where the people you love are...but the people i love are so scattered...this is so confusing!! well, i guess i can't say i am coming home because it seems at this moment i don't have a home...and to be honest, that is okay with me...i am in search of a home, perhaps this will help:
* single male looking for permanent to semi-permanent home *
- relatively clean; enjoy vacuuming and sweeping when ears are filled with good music
- can be noisy when playing guitar or telling animated story
- spend many hours away from home running the streets contemplating life
- been known to have the occasional friend over and their girlfriends (i have perfected being the third wheel)
- hope to grow close and bond through candle light dinners and late night movies
if anybody has any recommendations drop me a comment.
home or no home, i am heading back to ontario where most of my family and most of my friend reside...i am excited about that...at this point it appears i will be leaving the west coast on the 30th of this month and heading east in the orange bomber with one more passenger than i had on the way out...i wanted to lay this out in my blog because at this point i plan to do some couch surfing, as in crashing on friends and families couches for short periods of time as i continue my job search...i figure this is the best way to see as many people as i can before i find an actual place to live...i know the obvious places i will be hitting, but if anybody reads this and wants a visit from a homeless person please hit me with a comment or a facebook message...i can offer barefoot running tips, cynical views on life and long winded opinions on a variety of topics...i look forward to seeing anybody i see.
here is what i look like now if anybody has forgot...haha.
m.
i am heading home.
well, i am not sure if that is an accurate statement...where is home for me...i guess in the traditional sense where i grew up, but i sort of grew up in different locations, so which one wins out as home...maybe home is where the people you love are...but the people i love are so scattered...this is so confusing!! well, i guess i can't say i am coming home because it seems at this moment i don't have a home...and to be honest, that is okay with me...i am in search of a home, perhaps this will help:
* single male looking for permanent to semi-permanent home *
- relatively clean; enjoy vacuuming and sweeping when ears are filled with good music
- can be noisy when playing guitar or telling animated story
- spend many hours away from home running the streets contemplating life
- been known to have the occasional friend over and their girlfriends (i have perfected being the third wheel)
- hope to grow close and bond through candle light dinners and late night movies
if anybody has any recommendations drop me a comment.
home or no home, i am heading back to ontario where most of my family and most of my friend reside...i am excited about that...at this point it appears i will be leaving the west coast on the 30th of this month and heading east in the orange bomber with one more passenger than i had on the way out...i wanted to lay this out in my blog because at this point i plan to do some couch surfing, as in crashing on friends and families couches for short periods of time as i continue my job search...i figure this is the best way to see as many people as i can before i find an actual place to live...i know the obvious places i will be hitting, but if anybody reads this and wants a visit from a homeless person please hit me with a comment or a facebook message...i can offer barefoot running tips, cynical views on life and long winded opinions on a variety of topics...i look forward to seeing anybody i see.
here is what i look like now if anybody has forgot...haha.
m.
Friday, October 16, 2009
20 fingers.
so i got my pair of vibram five fingers and they are pretty wicked...i went with the aqua camo because i thought it best represented my personality...black or brown is so boring...plus i wanted them to stand out so everybody would stare (which happened...why do people try to hide their stares...it confuses me...like i don't see you staring at my feet)...anyways, i figured i should wear them around a bit to break them in, but then instead i did the grouse grind in them...that first pic above is me on the trail and the second one is me almost breaking my foot while trying to take another photo so i put the camera away until i was at the top...the third is the FF after the climb, a little dirty but no worse for the wear...i am not going to do a review of them or anything, you can find a hundred of them on the web already...i will say i loved them, they really do mimic barefootting well and give you protection against all the stuff that shoe wearers are afraid of...i also did an easy 5 miles in them later the same day and they were great...you can still feel all the contours and changes in the ground (which is the best part of barefooting) but the little stones and rocks don't get to you as much...there are a few different types of FF which i will be looking into in the future, but these will do me for now...go check them out and consider buying some, you won't be disappointed.
the next day, i decided to do another hike, the chief (located in squamish), in the FF...again they performed great...the best parts of wearing these new 'shoes' is that my leg muscles get a great workout...in the past when i was wearing shoes i would get various pains that were just uncomfortable and, well, painful...these pains were not a good thing, they were warnings against something that was bad...wearing FF i don't get pain, i get soreness because i am using muscles i didn't previously use on a regular basis...i can see how much stronger my feet and lower legs were get after prolonged use of the FF...i can't say enough...here are some highlights of my climb up the chief.
other than my FF nothing new is going on here...i am waiting on some job news and if it is good looks like i will be moving to canmore, alberta...if the news isn't as good all you ontario folk keep your eyes peeled for my pretty little face...i miss all you anyways, so if you see a runner barefoot in your parts who looks like he hasn't shaved in 6 weeks, it could be me...i will posted with the good/bad news when i get it...until then enjoy the world.
m.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
stop being mean.
i am not suicidal, just lonely and using this blog as a therapeutic tool...i know things will get better, but i find that expressing my 'darkness' gives me motivation because i can sort of read about how pathetic it is...thanks for any support.
today while i was walking in the rain i started to think about why as humans we are so mean to each other...this topic has come up a bit in conversation that last couple of weeks and i find it very strange...why is it that as soon as we get close to somebody we feel we have the right to decide what is best for them...we concoct this elaborate plan for them and retain the right to decide if they are deviating from this plan...and when they do, we come down on them like a wrecking ball through and unsuspecting heritage building...even when it is clear that they are happy with their deviation, they are following their hearts, we try to chop them down...why are we so mean? why do we tear down the ones we love? is it for our own personal gain, so we can sleep better at night? knowing that they are following the plan, even though the plan really means nothing...i know we all judge, i mean i know i do, at times openly and honestly...but when it comes to peoples lives i try to just be supportive and happy that they are happy, not tear them down because they may have a different view of an appropriate lifestyle...i think we all need to re-evaluate the phrase 'i am just doing this because i care'...isn't life about making mistakes and then learning from them...let people make their own decisions and if they turn out to be mistakes, let them learn...it just seems that people get out of hand...parents abandoning their children because they are marrying the wrong guy...friends abandoning each other because of some choice they don't agree with...yelling matches, fights and name calling, for what? a little closure, a little less frustration? i think the emotion of anger is often lost of me...i tell people all the time that i never get angry and that is pretty much a lie because there are times when i do...but it just happens very rarely and i just don't get why people put so much energy into their anger...especially about things they have no business get angry about, like other peoples lives...humans beings everywhere, stop being so mean to each other!!! we kill and steal and lie and cheat...and we do all these things to the people that we supposedly love...i can't give you a definition for love, but i know for a fact that is sure doesn't involve those things...we need less steamy, red faces and more smiles...less fist fighting and more hand shaking...we need less judging and more acceptance...we need to be happy with each for who we are, not who we think each other should be...maybe that is why my friends list is so short...i only want to be friends with the people who really love ME...not portions, or some person that i could be...perhaps all this isn't as poetic as it could be, but think about how much you judge and evaluate other peoples lives...and then stop and just enjoy each other.
as some of you know i am now into running barefoot...and the more i do it the more i love it...i have been reading tons and am astonished at some of the things that i have been learning...the running shoes industry is worth approximately 20 billions dollars a year and their is ZERO scientific research that running shoes reduce injury...in fact, their is reliable research that suggests running shoes INCREASE the rate of injury and some even suggests that the higher the price of the shoes the more prone to injury...i think this is hilarious and wonderful...people that know me i am sure have heard me talk about starbucks and how much i hate it...this is true for various reasons, but in general i think i am starting to dislike large entities that can sway the public into purchasing almost anything...so, any chance to go against shoes companies, for me, makes for a great opportunity...something i find very funny is, i was reading this website that had pros and cons of barefoot running and one of the cons what 'you will look funny and people will stare'...now that is some scientific approach...to me, that would be in the pros coloumn, but that is a separate story...perhaps running barefoot isn't for everybody, i understand this...but if you are reading this, stay away from the 250 dollar shoes and gravitate towards the cheepest shoes that feel comfortable...allow your body to do what it is suppose to do...take some time to read and learn...it has change me forever.
as for my actual training, i am doing about 6 miles a day, getting my legs, ankles and feel accustomed to running barefoot...there are some rubber foot gloves of sort that i want to pick up which will help things along...but something about running completely barefoot is fun...so as for racing, it won't happen until next year...the good thing is i am pain free while running other than some blisters as i get used to BF...i will be looking to do a spring marathon, but not sure where i will be so i will have to wait and see...its great to be back smiling again while out on the road...running with pain just isn't the same...i am back to daydreaming and contemplating life's many mysteries...expect more frequent blogs as my mind returns to form.
to end...i miss my family and my friends...DR and his 'living'...CS and his lovely fiance...MA and my terrible lack of communication...obviously my mom and our movie dates...even BH and his elderly advice...i will even give a shout to JF and her sweet massage ability and shared love for a certain somebody...and finally...NM and our recent 'living'...plus anybody else i missed or i haven't talked to in awhile that might read this...i hope i get to see everybody soon...enjoy the earth.
m.
today while i was walking in the rain i started to think about why as humans we are so mean to each other...this topic has come up a bit in conversation that last couple of weeks and i find it very strange...why is it that as soon as we get close to somebody we feel we have the right to decide what is best for them...we concoct this elaborate plan for them and retain the right to decide if they are deviating from this plan...and when they do, we come down on them like a wrecking ball through and unsuspecting heritage building...even when it is clear that they are happy with their deviation, they are following their hearts, we try to chop them down...why are we so mean? why do we tear down the ones we love? is it for our own personal gain, so we can sleep better at night? knowing that they are following the plan, even though the plan really means nothing...i know we all judge, i mean i know i do, at times openly and honestly...but when it comes to peoples lives i try to just be supportive and happy that they are happy, not tear them down because they may have a different view of an appropriate lifestyle...i think we all need to re-evaluate the phrase 'i am just doing this because i care'...isn't life about making mistakes and then learning from them...let people make their own decisions and if they turn out to be mistakes, let them learn...it just seems that people get out of hand...parents abandoning their children because they are marrying the wrong guy...friends abandoning each other because of some choice they don't agree with...yelling matches, fights and name calling, for what? a little closure, a little less frustration? i think the emotion of anger is often lost of me...i tell people all the time that i never get angry and that is pretty much a lie because there are times when i do...but it just happens very rarely and i just don't get why people put so much energy into their anger...especially about things they have no business get angry about, like other peoples lives...humans beings everywhere, stop being so mean to each other!!! we kill and steal and lie and cheat...and we do all these things to the people that we supposedly love...i can't give you a definition for love, but i know for a fact that is sure doesn't involve those things...we need less steamy, red faces and more smiles...less fist fighting and more hand shaking...we need less judging and more acceptance...we need to be happy with each for who we are, not who we think each other should be...maybe that is why my friends list is so short...i only want to be friends with the people who really love ME...not portions, or some person that i could be...perhaps all this isn't as poetic as it could be, but think about how much you judge and evaluate other peoples lives...and then stop and just enjoy each other.
as some of you know i am now into running barefoot...and the more i do it the more i love it...i have been reading tons and am astonished at some of the things that i have been learning...the running shoes industry is worth approximately 20 billions dollars a year and their is ZERO scientific research that running shoes reduce injury...in fact, their is reliable research that suggests running shoes INCREASE the rate of injury and some even suggests that the higher the price of the shoes the more prone to injury...i think this is hilarious and wonderful...people that know me i am sure have heard me talk about starbucks and how much i hate it...this is true for various reasons, but in general i think i am starting to dislike large entities that can sway the public into purchasing almost anything...so, any chance to go against shoes companies, for me, makes for a great opportunity...something i find very funny is, i was reading this website that had pros and cons of barefoot running and one of the cons what 'you will look funny and people will stare'...now that is some scientific approach...to me, that would be in the pros coloumn, but that is a separate story...perhaps running barefoot isn't for everybody, i understand this...but if you are reading this, stay away from the 250 dollar shoes and gravitate towards the cheepest shoes that feel comfortable...allow your body to do what it is suppose to do...take some time to read and learn...it has change me forever.
as for my actual training, i am doing about 6 miles a day, getting my legs, ankles and feel accustomed to running barefoot...there are some rubber foot gloves of sort that i want to pick up which will help things along...but something about running completely barefoot is fun...so as for racing, it won't happen until next year...the good thing is i am pain free while running other than some blisters as i get used to BF...i will be looking to do a spring marathon, but not sure where i will be so i will have to wait and see...its great to be back smiling again while out on the road...running with pain just isn't the same...i am back to daydreaming and contemplating life's many mysteries...expect more frequent blogs as my mind returns to form.
to end...i miss my family and my friends...DR and his 'living'...CS and his lovely fiance...MA and my terrible lack of communication...obviously my mom and our movie dates...even BH and his elderly advice...i will even give a shout to JF and her sweet massage ability and shared love for a certain somebody...and finally...NM and our recent 'living'...plus anybody else i missed or i haven't talked to in awhile that might read this...i hope i get to see everybody soon...enjoy the earth.
m.
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