strangers and anonymous commenters.

last night i got all up into some walk in volleyball with total strangers...and it was a great experience...the whole interaction with strangers and meeting new people with little or no buffer is not an easy thing for me to wrap my head around...and due to my stubbornness to learn, i guess, i don't have much practice...but, that is where change rolls through these parts...i am trying to put myself in situations that force me to learn, force me to change my anti-social ways...and that is exciting...i am discovering in a bad way that friends are the pillars that keep you standing during times where it feels things just keep piling on...and although i am no where near rock bottom there are days when i wake up and feel there is a lot of weight on my shoulders and without some solid foundation work, i could come crashing down...now i have some solid pillars, but it never hurts to revamp and enhance that part of your life...so heres to strangers, sometimes they are nothing what you expect, in fact that seems to be the case all the time.

i would like to send out an encouragement to people who are hiding, hiding a huge part of themselves, for whatever reason that may be...it is a burden, one which nobody should have to go through alone...i understand that sometimes things can't be allowed to escape, but at some point the container that is holding all of the secrets is going to burst and that doesn't provide a happy ending for anybody...good luck with the demons inside, well all have them, we just gotta find a way to let them out, slowing, so nobody gets hurt.

finally, thanks anonymous for the franz ferdinand lyrics...i never thought they would end up in my blog...i enjoy trying to decipher the meaning and determine if they have any relevance to my ramblings...i look forward to further comments and perhaps an unveiling of your i.d., even if i don't know you...enjoy.

m.