free ice.

have you ever taken a look at your life and wondered where exactly you are headed?

and i don't mean in a frightened way...there is no fear of traveling down the incorrect path or being nervous that you won't get there, but just feeling a little left out when the message came down to tell about your destiny...its difficult to describe the emotions...somebody once told me that they thought there were emotions that you could not describe, and perhaps this is one of them...lately, i just have been feeling completely on the outside, like an alien, like i was never meant to fit in to the mass population that seems to have no trouble fitting in...the thing is, in no way does this make me sad, in fact i am sort of proud of it...atleast i know i haven't been formed by a popular cookie cutter shape...it does make me feel a bit lonely though...even my friends seem to have mastered the art of throwing down with the general public...and the people i used to think were in my boat, they have moved on, to bigger boats and ships...but this doesn't mean i am sinking, i am not, i just choose to lazily float around on the open water...maybe one day i will hit somebody elses boat and we can form an alliance, i am not sure...that sort of brings me back to not knowing where i am headed...i still beleive that i am destined to do something worthwhile, something that will fill me with pride...and acomplishment that i can say made a difference in somebody's life...but for now this blindfold is really itchy and annoying...but don't fret, it is not going to stop me from moving forward, thinking big and trying to overcome the many obstacles we face in this life...i have been reaching out to these strangers, the humans that seem so different...so what if a handshake is foreign, nervousness seems to pass, right? maybe i just wasn't the '1000' friend make when my designer was envisioning his creation...shit, i barely hit 250 friends on facebook...is that sad? or am i just picky? i guess my next challenge is to just start putting myself in those awkward positions and start learning how it all works...no man is an island, and apparentaly no alien is an island either...its just my parcel of land is pretty small so not people end up staying...i must invest in some lights, decorations and maybe a mini bar, entice people to stick around...coming soon, state of the art ice maker, your drinks are colder than ever.

m.