my furnace burns just like your hopes and dreams.

anonymous is back and posted a great song in the comments...one of my all time favorites actually...solid taste...and i think the song is a love song of sorts which makes it even better...because who couldn't use a little bit of love.

i just finished watching the movie american teen and it was really interesting...it was a sort of documentary that followed 6 teens in their senior year, showing the different sides of each and the struggles that they had to endure...in the end everything came to a happy conclusion which i found pretty funny...the movie actually feel a little disgusted at how childish the world can be at times...but it also got me thinking about what i want to do with my life...wait a second, it made me think of what i want to do in the coming years...how can we define what we want to do with our life...things change in an instant...i want less definition and more questions, more adventures...more randomness...it keeps things interesting...i can't imagine my life being a book, where you can just flip to the last few pages and read the ending...i want it to be more like a daily paper where i can subscribe and recieve daily information, most of it new and unexpected...this paper won't be brodcasting only negative stories, but exciting flashes of genious...maybe i will called it 'the daily genious'...that just makes me proud.

so over the past few weeks i have been thinking about relationships, love, commitment and all that exciting stuff...and i have come to the conclusion that it terrifys me and i am not really sure why...i often think about what i consider my perfect relationship and usually i come to the same conclusion...it doesn't really exist...soul mates; a little optimistic i would say...but maybe these thoughts are just a product of what has gone down in my past, i am not sure...anwyays, last night i was continuing this thought line, when the rye kicked in and i realized that it was a fucking waste of time...last night i build a furnace in my head...this furnace is designed for unwanted thoughts...whenever one comes along from here on out i will put it in the furnace and burn it away...use the heat and energy produced to fuel productive thoughts that are going to improve my life...i love my furnace, it burns with great intensity and the funny thing is, its efficiency is increased when i am wearing a headband...must be equivalent to a thinking cap...lets call it a combustion headband...done.

i am totally addicted to tokyo police club and i am proud to admit it...they are pop with great lyrics and i love it...their songs are teases though because most of them are only like 2 and a half minutes, so i just reply them over and over...i have fun though so i don't care.

well i am out, tonight i am off to a house party...i am entering an unknown world, will i return?

m.