today i wonder who has seen true emotion...and i don't know how many people read this, but i can guarantee a lot of you...maybe it is not true emotion i am looking for, but true love...who has seen it...please stand up, if you are so brave...trueness, is that a word, i doubt it, but who really cares at this point...man, can you learn a lifetime about yourself in a moment of truth...what do you do in that moment, what do you say...what if, in that moment there is nothing to say, what if in that moment you have no control over anything that happens...do you flee? do you abandon everything you believe in? i must stand tall in that moment, i must hold my ground, or i will have lost.
i must open my eyes when the other pair of eyes are staring at me...waiting for me to lead the way...can i lead? should i beign a sentence? should i capalize? do i derserve this life? who says i am great? who says i am worthy?
that would be me.
today i realized that despite all of the flaws and all of the mistakes, despite all of the tears and sadness, despite all of the pain poured out onto the floor, a heart that is true does not lie...and perhaps fear dictacts this path, this portion of life, but in the end, a true beleif, a true faith, an undenible hope deserves a chance to grow...and grow it will.
m.
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