i've been running this week!!! haha...well i guess it was last week but the days are morphing into one lately as it seems all i do is exercise and eat...ya i did a 6 mile and then a 4 mile and they both felt great...there was a bit of tightness in the calves the next day but that is to be expected...my legs are definitely not in shape for running, but the old ticker held up alright...it seems as though the swimming and biking is helping get me back to where i want to be.
speaking of biking, i bought a road bike, a used one ofcourse...i have only be out on it once, i wanna get a pump and extra tubes before i do anything crazy...but it was really fun...i really want to get into some tri's this year while i get better and back into the hardcore running...i never really thought i would like the biking, but i had fun with the bike today, there are lots of bike paths arou
nd burnaby and vancouver as they seem to really encourage that type of travel...i have been reading a book on climate change, and although i don't take everything it says as truth, it does point out how addicted we are as a society to the automobile and how that is essentially leading to our eventual downfall...the lease on my car is up next year and i am going to put serious thought into living without a car for awhile...i think that could be fun, it could teach me some lessons and maybe give me a greater appreciation for the ability to go any place at any time...anyways, back to the bike, i attached a photo for all too see...i will never love anything like i love running, but i am beginning to appreciate these other disciplines and i am enjoying the change.today was sort of a day of remembrance for me, i am not sure why, but it just seemed to happen...i find it tough sometimes to think back on my life and the decisions i made because knowing what i know now would have come in handy back then...but i don't let it get me down, i just enjoying thinking about it sometimes...it actually inspires me to be better in the present...well, most of the time...when it comes to love and relationships i am not sure if i will ever been inspired or if i will ever get it right...i see couples getting married or talking about marriage and it feels so far over my head its scary...today i got the thought in my head that i may be the type of person and has one single soul mate in the world and until i find that person, no other human being stands a chance with me...and the reality is, i may never find that person or maybe i have already found that person and didn't know it...i am not sure...all i know is i have done some real damage when it comes to the relationships i have been in and to stay positive to keep moving forward i have to think they were the right ones to be in, or it wasn't the right time to be in it...the whole concept of a relationship i find to be very simple from a distance, but once you get involved in one it just never is...why can't it just be 'we are happy together, we are in love' end of story, or 'we are not happy together, lets go our separate ways'...but we all know, it just doesn't work that way...love is such a complex thing, and some days i find myself thinking that love is just something human beings creating to make themselves feel better or mean more...but most days i see it, and i know it is real and i know that i have felt it on two occasions...i guess when it is gone for awhile, sometimes you forget its power...well, to all out there in love, i salute you...stay strong on the front lines, it will pay off in the end.
m.
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b-e-a-utiful, I've got to get my bike out of the basement. Maybe this week... I've hit the running but I need to drain my sleepiness. I am doing a tri and a marathon this year. Registering this week. Tri(b30k,s800m,r6k).
My heart sank when I read your take on love; it's a magical feeling and you are lucky to have felt it not only once but twice. The love you share/shared with those individuals will never be forgotten and I know that at least one of them holds you very close to their heart.
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