what is up? so the deed is done, the top secret mission is complete and I feel like i deserve my close up with some shades like tom cruise in mission impossible...only i hope my message doesn't self destruct in 10 seconds!! i have been trying really hard to shed some positive life onto my life and it feels really good...i have been battling the demons that are crawling through my brain spewing negativity and at this point i think i am winning...time is elapsing quickly from each day to the next and i am holding a strong foundation...at this point i am as ready as ever to face the attacks...
today is bailey's birthday, my niece, and it makes me sad that i can't be there to wish her a happy birthday...i know she is actually my baby, but it gives me a little glimpse of what it is going to be like to have a child and to be the one responsible for the way they turn out...such a fragile experience with so many variables, it must be terrifying in one way but obviously the greatest reward in another way...she has to be the cutest baby i have ever seen and sarah and jeff i give you credit for creating her...she is a blessing to us all...what a life it would be to be a baby, don't you think...i mean babies know nothing of the pressures of life...they do what they want, when they want and they do it up the right way...i am trying to take advice from her little brain cells and steer my life direction in one that i beleive will make me happy...thanks bailey, you are much more wise than you know!!!
last night after a couple days off to get done what needed to get done, i did up a 10 miler which was great...did it on a course with some good size hills and some up and down terrain and felt really comfortable...i think my confidence is actually coming back but slower than my body because i am still a little suprised when looking down at my watch and seeing 650 pace and not breathing hard at all...i am beginning to get used to it again, but i am trying to take it slow just in case...i have been thinking back to the marathon alot lately, and actually not just the race but the whole trip and how great it was to get away with some great friends...for some reason, most of my life i didn't beleive friends were that important...maybe it was becuase i would make them and lose them so much...but i am realizing that good friends are just an extension of your family...and in the end your family is what really matters in this life...i like to beleive and i hope that no deed is so bad, no mistake is so horrible that is cuts the ties of the people that you really love and the people that really love you...i mean thats what love is right? i think the big picture becomes a little less blurry each and every day i exist and it is exciting to have these great relevations, but only if they stay with you...thoughts are really just steam coming off the water, evaporating into thin air and lost forever...the trick is to capture that steam and lay out strategies so that very steam will power your life forever.
m.
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I would agree that friends are important.
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