i have made it through my first weekend in this foreign place i have chose to re-establish my life...i can't say it was eventful, but i will say i am happy to be here...friday was a very rough day as i decided that the start of a new job is a great time to start really changing my life...one thing that that involves is kicking the caffeine habit...i had come down from a few cups a day to one cup a day over the last couple of months so i figured cutting it out of my morning ritual wouldn't be that big of a deal...boy was i wrong...the day started off well, but by mid afternoon an explosion had gone off in my head and it would just not go away...nothing i did helped and i was forced to lie around helplessly for awhile...i was determined not to give up entirely on the day so i went to the home depot (which would normally make it a nice little thursday), but my brain was fuzzy and i felt like i was disappearing...i figured if i moved onto something a bit more exciting i could shake the vice that had a grip on my mind...off to the grocery store, which if you know me is one of my favourite places...it was the worst grocery store experience of my life...that alone almost brought me to tears...the grocery store is my safe place, it always makes me feel good, except thursday...i stumbled through the aisles, perhaps skinning a few heals, i am not sure and got out of there as fast as i could while trying not to forget anything...i got home plopped everything down and retired to the couch to die...who would have thought kicking a caffeine addiction would be this horrible...i feel for those people who are addicted to something a bit more narly...i finally gave in to some aspirin which stomped the pounding enough that i could drift away into a coffee coma...surprisingly i woke feeling much better...i now i am three days into a caffeine free life...i feel good and ready to tackle my first day tomorrow.
there is something exciting about moving to a place where literally nobody knows who you are...nobody knows your past, no mistakes and no triumphs...i feel almost like a ghost...i can be anybody i want with no stigma or preconceived ideas to sift through...i think it will be a learning experience, perhaps a tad lonely, but there is lots to explore...i am anxious to see how each day turns out.
as for running, my body isn't agreeing to much with me lately...i am glad to be a bit more grounded now and i can get into a routine...there is a pool/gym that is close by that i think i am going to join just to help get my body back into shape...i am waiting for some equipment to come in the mail which will help battle the cold weather...stay tuned.
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here i am...one of your faithful followers anxious to know how your NEW life is going but i shall wait until you have a few days or maybe a week under your new belt...happy to hear about the caffeine freedom...not sure i can be so brave. sarah and i were talking today and wondering how you are doing but we will learn more soon. you take care..enjoy this new adventure and a step in the right direction..divine intervention i say!! xo
your past... oh don't worry.. council has already been warned and an EPB, if that's what you call them is out to let everyone know where you cam from. i told em you were twenty two. hope that's ok.
on the caffeine addiction. i've headed into coffee. i think it's good to keep it down though. if i have more than two i turn into some sort of twitch fit monster and time doesn't seem to smell like roses anymore.
life is good friend. see you talking soon.
Maybe it's the lack of caffeine that makes you the way you are!!! haha It was good to catch up last night despite your attitude.....have a coffee already!!! ;)
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