the day i say goodbye.

when people ask me why i came to vancouver i don't really know what to say...i didn't come for a job, i was leaving a lot of people i loved, but for some reason i felt i had to do something...maybe that is it, just to do something...coming to vancouver has had a profound affect on my life...good or bad, i am not really sure, actually i am not really sure if i want to think about it that way...i have discovered parts of me i didn't know existed, but i have also lost things that i didn't know meant so much to me...all in all it was a learning experience...i guess some people would say it was a waste of time, but i would just call it living...i enjoyed many aspects of living in vancouver, but i know forsure it is not a place i want to live any length of time in...what i am saying is, its time for me to leave.

i am heading home.

well, i am not sure if that is an accurate statement...where is home for me...i guess in the traditional sense where i grew up, but i sort of grew up in different locations, so which one wins out as home...maybe home is where the people you love are...but the people i love are so scattered...this is so confusing!! well, i guess i can't say i am coming home because it seems at this moment i don't have a home...and to be honest, that is okay with me...i am in search of a home, perhaps this will help:

* single male looking for permanent to semi-permanent home *
- relatively clean; enjoy vacuuming and sweeping when ears are filled with good music
- can be noisy when playing guitar or telling animated story
- spend many hours away from home running the streets contemplating life
- been known to have the occasional friend over and their girlfriends (i have perfected being the third wheel)
- hope to grow close and bond through candle light dinners and late night movies

if anybody has any recommendations drop me a comment.

home or no home, i am heading back to ontario where most of my family and most of my friend reside...i am excited about that...at this point it appears i will be leaving the west coast on the 30th of this month and heading east in the orange bomber with one more passenger than i had on the way out...i wanted to lay this out in my blog because at this point i plan to do some couch surfing, as in crashing on friends and families couches for short periods of time as i continue my job search...i figure this is the best way to see as many people as i can before i find an actual place to live...i know the obvious places i will be hitting, but if anybody reads this and wants a visit from a homeless person please hit me with a comment or a facebook message...i can offer barefoot running tips, cynical views on life and long winded opinions on a variety of topics...i look forward to seeing anybody i see.

here is what i look like now if anybody has forgot...haha.



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