acceptance is the first step.

i have come to this place to admit my newly developed addiction to twilight saga...now before you go and judge me on this, let me justify and explain how my feeble attempt to avoid this was such an epic failure...i didn't read the books because of the teenage cult following and i didn't want to be part of that whole escapade, but i did obtain the movie without having to shell out any money which makes this a much more beneficial habit...the reality is, beneath the obvious vampire plot line and cult following due to the 'good looking' actors, there is an inspiring love story that develops...a story that shows that love should conquer all...in fact i would go as far as saying we could all learn a thing or two from the movie (or book for that matter)...i mean, i am sure that sounds insane, but when you dissect the story, it is true...when you are willing to give up your very source or existence for the person you love, that is a powerful message...i think if we all could find a love that strong in our lives, the world would be a much better place.

off day today for running and i feel pretty gross, but playing it safe and not jumping into things too crazy to start...lately i have lots to think about and my runs have been going by in a flash...there were a few times when i arrived back at my house without really remembering much of the run; being lost in my thoughts and all...the thing is, how do you conquer a challenge that has no answer? has no correct path? do you keep fighting or go limp and give in? my focus is so fuzzy right now it is making my head hurt...sometimes when i get back from a run, i want to go for another one in hopes that i can clear some of the smoke because i just can't figure anything out...i am trying to be patient and just let the universe takes its course, but it is difficult...is it time to relent and stop fighting, admit to the defeat and move on? time will tell i guess.

here's a song from the movie that i love.



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